Today I didn’t want to get out of bed, but Dugan Hays (my dog) and Faith (my wife) said otherwise. I had an amazing day yesterday and with all the excitement, I guess I couldn’t sleep…even with unisom. So, I did what I often do. I pray. Last night, I didn’t get online and pray with anyone, I just spent time alone with God while my Wife and baby-soon-to-come got rest. I just laid in bed and prayed. 3 hours later I was shocked that I still felt wide awake. Eventually, I fell asleep. (btw I’m pretty sure that praying doesn’t make me better or holier than anyone especially now that I’ve announced it on FB, but it does change the circumstances around me and help my attitude about things. NOPE. I’m just as messy as ever. lol) So, this a.m., Dugan barks in my face to wake me and I get up reluctantly…I do my usual coffee thing and see Faith off to work and wonder what my day is going to be like…then I read this message from a teenager:
“Thanks, you should really know that if you didn’t talk to me that day I would be dead right now. I tried to end my life a few days ago and now I’m just thinking about all the things you said. Especially when you said something along the lines of “I’ve always been here” I never felt God like that before. The holy spirit truly is working through you like I’ve never seen before. I’m having the most difficult time if my life right now, but what you said is saving me. Please keep praying for me. Thanks for everything Shaun.”
And THAT…right there… is why I wake up everyday. It’s what keeps me going. It’s what focuses me. I wish you could all have been a fly on the wall for that whole conversation the teenager mentions, but it was very personal and private… a conversation between a hurting person and the King’s personal messenger dispatched to help them in that moment.
If you have ever despaired – if you have ever been lost in this dark world – ever just collapsed and cried – you have a friend who understands that pain. Please do not hesitate to ask Him to change you and save you. He made you – so He knows what you need. I would love to talk to you more about it. Please, don’t give up.
If you have ever felt that you were meant for something bigger than just acquiring stuff – that life is precious – that hurting people need a friend – that you can make a difference… but you just don’t feel like you are up to it anymore… Please, don’t give up.
“Do not grow weary in well doing.”